Good Morning..July 4th Independence Day
hmmm could this be an omen!?
well this is a first.....me blogging. I was thinking about journaling everyday and how I could keep in touch with a lot of friends..did a little Net research and came up with the answer....A blog!
Explanation of the title; So far I think I have had 4 phases in my life. A daughter, a wife, a nurse, a mother and now this phase, still not sure what to call this one. Some one told me recently how lucky I was to be given this opportunity to reinvent myself...hmmm gives me something to think about. Now just because I said there were 5 phases doesn't mean that I move from one into an another never returning..in my mind the phases are fluid..I move in and out of them day to day even hour to hour. I think and hope this phase is a accumulation of all the other phases, this is the phase where hopefully I am the person I am meant to be. That all the others have formed this person ..the person who found the strength and courage from the parents, husband, son, friends and career to make this huge change in her life.
Six months ago a seed of an idea started in my brain..it grew and gathered momentum until I knew it was something I had to do. I knew after 35 + years of working at one place I needed and wanted to move on. To tell the truth the decision shocked the hell out of me..and my friends and family. Then after giving my dear sweet husband long hours of listening to my angst I decided on consulting. Two and half weeks ago I accepted a new position and handed in my resignation.
So now it begins...I am very surprised at the amount of people who have called me brave and courageous and said I have inner strength....I guess I don't see that..to tell truth a good part of this decision was based on fear. I was fearful first of not being the person others thought I was. You know how it is the big frog on the little pond. not that I thought of my self of the big frog...but I have developed my career in one place...I know a lot of people and my reputation is good in fact I think very good, but that is here. The question is can I be just as good somewhere where no one knows me? The second and biggest fear was regret...I did not want to look back a few years from now and wonder "what if" or "why didn't I when I had the chance?"
So I stepped off the cliff...took the plunge...what ever you may want to call it I DID IT!!! with a great amount of support and love from my husband, son and friends... I couldn't have done this with out them.. so with all my heart I thank them..for listening, for their patience with my emotional roller coaster ride and for loving me unconditionally ...I know it is not easy.
